My Dear, I'm Here, So Wake up!

The Vamps have release their single titled 'Wake Up' and the lyric goes like..

So wake up
Your sleeping heart
I know sometimes we'll be afraid
But no more playing safe, my dear
I'm here
So wake up

I am currently addicted to this song, different people may presume different meaning for this song but for my understanding.. it probably means the guy is trying to break the girl hearts slumber and trying to convince her to take up the courage again to be in love.. WITH HIM. teehee

It is true that we, especially girls, are afraid of getting hurt in relationship again. It is never easy to overcome the fear. NEVER. I went tarot reading last week and yes the tarot lady told me I was very very very very very very scare and insecure in my relationship. I haven't been into a romantic relationship for a long time, therefore my heart is in a coma state already, I am still waiting for the right one, the one who can WAKE ME UP from my heart coma. 

Now this song stuck in my head and I can't get rid of it =='' 

I attached together this MV in my post because.. it features Brooklyn Beckham in it. I want to see more of Brooklyn LOL. Y HE SO HANDSOME *fainted* 

Good Girl Gone Bad

They say you can't turn a bad girl good.
But once a good girl gone bad, she is gone forever.

Good Girl: Most of us refer to as 'girl-next-door'. She has that angel halo with her all the time, spread positive vibes. She dresses conservatively and has good morals and values. She is the kind that all men would die for.

Bad Girl: She is arrogance, she doesn't take any mess from anyone. She doesn't have much girl friend because most of them either jealous of her or they hate her. She dresses what she likes, she speak how she feels.She drinks, she smokes, she party, she plays around!

I was a GOOD GIRL, I was brought up by my parents to be a nice and decent girl. I rarely curse, I behave myself, I know how to carry myself and take care of my own image.

Then some shit happened, asshole out of no where who came and hurt the shit out of me!

I've changed! I activated my Defensive mode. I change the way I dress, I curse sometimes, I party BUT I don't drink, I don't smoke. I never get drunk or high. I've been hurt but I don't revenge on the next guy, I hurt NO ONE! I still have some faith in love and I believe that the right one will eventually appear.

But with my changes, some label me as a BAD GIRL. I show cleavage on some of my selfies, I use the F word. Guy friends constantly ask me to cut down my vulgarity because too much curse would be a turn off , but my girl friends rarely hear me swearing (That's because I use Mandarin to converse with my gf but with my guy friends I use Cantonese, so that explains why the swearing occurs. That is why I don't use Cantonese but my guy friends all BANANA cannot understand Mandarin. Bodoh sia LOL sorry)

So now here's my question. WHAT AM I?

Do you think I am a bad girl now? Or I have some good girl traits? (Actually I don't give a damn, I know myself well.. People who really understand me knows me well.. and I don't need to explain more) But I would like to thanks to my guy friends for the advice, I will cut down on swearing and I accept all the advises given, I change not because of you, I change for a better me!

I wouldn't want to be good girl anymore, however I wanna be a good person. Outlook doesn't determine everything, You Judge Me Based On How I Look, this shows how shallow you are. You assumed I am that kind of person because I portray it that way.. Eh hello, I say Fxxk you, do you think I really go and F around? That is not how you judge a person. Some girls act innocent, PEOPLE assumed she's a virgin. Oh really? Is that so? Some girls party, SOCIETY assumed she is a hoe. People tend to jump into conclusion real quick. I don't blame them for that because it is normal. If I were to meet a guy who is super loaded, handsome and perfect in everything, I would still doubt if he's a player. SO IT IS ABSOLUTELY NORMAL TO HAVE THAT THOUGHT, AND I AM SUPER OK IF YOU THINK I AM A BAD GIRL.    

Now here comes the things that I need to clarify :

As I said earlier, I still have some faith in love.. just a tiny bits. Thus, please do not play with my feeling. Leave me alone if you ain't serious, stay out of me if you just want to play around. It does usually take more than a bad relationship to turn good girl bad, so I have reached my limits. Women tend to seek men as a sense of security, when he viciously break that trust, she will never be the one she was before, she will take more precautions, her guard is up.

A good girl gone bad may not always stay in the bad girl realm, but she will never be the same.
我拿不起 也放不下
Love,

Mona

Turning 25

In few days time I am turning a quarter of a century old. Time passes fast, it seems like just yesterday when I celebrated my 21st birthday, realizing that I am no longer in my early twenties, the thought freaks me out, I don't know why! I do not wish to celebrate my birthday, I couldn't accept the fact that I am turning 25~ Something about 25 is really bothering me, I won't be able to tick on the 18-24 age of group when I filling out the survey form. I have to group myself in the 25- 30. No more calling myself twenty-something..  

Back then when my birthday is approaching, I get excited, I wanted my family and friends to celebrate my birthday with me. But now, when I know my birthday approaching I feel dread, I wish time could slow down, or even stop. 

I have many thoughts running in my mind right now.

I should have achieve something by now but I AM NOT. I am still clueless and lost. My direction towards my life was vague. 

A lot of 'what-if' flowing out from my mind.. What if I learn some skills during my high school time, dancing, singing or acting.. Probably I have talent right now and join the entertainment industry? 

What if I learn foreign language back then? Probably I can become a translator and get to travel to the world. All this makes me full of regrets right now. I am turning 25 and still achieve NOTHING. Feel so shitty right now.. Imma bout to cry! T.T

Topics that surround me now no longer about assignments, coursework, Boyfriend Girlfriend, Yum Cha, bull shit, crap shit, I love you, You love me! It's all about property, houses, car, loan, work, stress, money, commitment, ANTI-AGING CREAM~ WTF!!!! This is sad man.. so sad! Not forgetting also Life Insurance, Medical Insurance, Car Insurance, Investment, Marriage. Politics. BABIES. To be honest, I am not ready for all this. NOT AT ALL~!

Turning 25 to me is a burden, that means I am old enough and wise enough to analyse what's good and bad for me, I am mature enough to settle things by my own. I am independent enough to face everything by myself. Well, although I said I am not ready at all but the circumstances forces me to be one despite I am not willing to face it.

Anyways, I have to admit that I am turning 25 and there's nothing I can do. At this age, is time for me to discover who I really am (Actually that is what I always say to myself every year.. sobz) I should have shown some 'adult' traits instead of acting like a baby. Behave like an adult now because I cannot rely on my parents anymore. 

Let me take a chill pill and thanks for reading. Attached below are some throwback pictures, let me reminisce the old times.

19th 

20th

21st

23rd 

xoxo

Mona

Review: Eau Thermale Avene Gentle Cleansing Foam

Hello lovelies,

Here's another review of skincare product that I am using recently.

I have been searching for the right cleanser all the time for my skin and guess what? I THINK I FOUND IT~

Introducing the incredible Avene Gentle Cleansing Foam, I love how soft and gentle the cleaner is. The pump on the container dispenses just the right amount for one face washing. After cleansing my face with Avene Gentle Cleansing Form it leaves my skin feeling nourished and calmed. It doesn't causes my skin flaky (as I am afraid that foam form of cleanser will causes dry skin but luckily it didn't). The cleansing foam was specifically designed for Asian skin in need of extra gentle care. Not forgetting that it contains Avene Thermal Spring Water which gives it soothing and anti irritating properties.

If you have sensitive, normal or combination skin and you are looking for cleansing foam that suits you, I will highly recommend this Avene Gentle Cleansing Foam.

Other than the cleansing foam, I like the Avene Thermal Spring Water. It has low mineral content that respect the natural balance and the sensitivity of the skin without causing dehydration or irritation like other high mineral content thermal water. Few spray on the face and I feel fresh~~!

Avene skincare product is one of my new love now~ I am not being bias but the product really improve my skin condition and I can see changes on my face, it is getting better. 

Do try out their cleansing foam first then you will see the difference.

XOXO

Mona

Review: SILKYGIRL's Limited Edition Perfect Stay 20HR Eyeliner

Eyeliner is essential and is one of the MUST wear make up item whenever I am out from my house.

Introducing the SilkyGirl Limited Edition Perfect Stay 20HR Eyeliner, the chrome casing attracts me because it looks kinda cool..! Futuristic hehe

I like to draw my eyeline in a very thin layer because I always wanted to achieve that Korean so called ' no make up' kinda make up look, if you get what I mean, hence thin yet define eye line is what I am always looking for. 

Surprisingly, this eyeliner able to create that effect. LOOK at my make up. 

Very thin layer, but you can see the color is really obvious. I don't have to re-apply to get the DARK and BLACK solid color. 

One of the strongest point for this eyeliner is IT DOES LAST LONGER than I expected. Bravo~~~ 

Btw, the mascara I am using for my make up is the Big Eye Collagen Waterproof Mascara by SilkyGirl as well.. It makes my eyelashes super duper long! Ain't it beautiful?

Do follow SilkyGirl Instagram account at @silkygirlcosmetics

Visit their website @ http://www.silkycosmetics.com/

Xoxo,
Mona

Review: SILKYGIRL's Limited Edition Moisture Rich Lipcolor

In conjunction with SILKYGIRL's 10th Anniversary celebration, they have came out with the Limited Edition Moisture Rich Lipcolor. It has 5 NEW different shades and I got to try 3 of them! (As for normal Moisture Rich Lipcolor, it has 18 eye-catching shades!)

From LEFT to RIGHT 04, 02 & 01

Moisture Rich Lipcolor is one of the most-loved product among the SilkyGirl product range. I love how moisturizing the lipsticks are and my lips doesn't dry up easily, I need not to worry of having chapped lips. Other than that, it stays for a very long period as well..

I have tested 3 colors and I LOVE 01 the most!!! As for 02 and 04 doesn't really stand out probably because of my tanned skin =)
Let's look at the finishing look below.. teehee 

I have also tested out the Limited Edition Perfect Stay 20HR Eyeliner! Stay tuned for my next blog post! 

Review: INNISFREE JEJU VOLCANIC PRODUCTS

Korean beauty products have taken over the beauty industry nowadays. I am so excited to try on the famous brands such as Laneige.. Tony Moly, Etude House, even Innisfree..

My main concern now would be my pores on my face. I wanted products that can tighten up my pores and minimize it. I have been using Etude House Wonder Pore Toner for quite sometimes. Just in case you don't know the product, it looks like this. BEST!

So what makes me wanna try on the Innisfree product? I've been watching Running Man and Superman Returns and they always visited the mud pool and dip themselves into it. They claimed that the mud can exfoliate your skin.. soften the skin as well.

Hence, I want to give it a try and I bought a SET from Innisfree.

1)Jeju Volcanic Mousse Cleanser
I DON'T LIKE THIS! First and will be my LAST! =.=

Positive: Err.... no I guess?

Negative: After using this product my face become very dry. Literally wash away all the natural sebum on my face and making my face very flakey.. T.T I have to immediately put on my Etude House Wonder Pore Toner to moisture my face. 

Rating: I have stop using this product! NO STAR

2) Jeju Volcanic Pore Toner

This toner has two layers, you'll need to shake well before using it. The upper layer contains of water, as for the bottom is the mineral powder. 

Positive: Nice and strong scent.. it's like applying perfume on your face. It has cooling effect and I feel fresh after applying it.

Negative: Nah.. doesn't really minimize my pores. 

Rating: ★★

3) Jeju Volcanic Pore Lotion

Positive: Nice and strong scent

Negative: I think this product causes me breakout! My pimples popping out and I am sad about it! 

Rating: NO STAR

4) Super Volcanic Pore Clay Mask

Positive: Errr .. none

Negative: It was ok when I first bought it, but as I kept them for longer period I think the mask started to harden. It was creamy form when I first bought it.. Now its like.. ice cream form.. HARDEN already wtf

Rating: NO STAR

To be honest, it was really hard for me to think of the PROs for the products, I regret it so much because I bought the WHOLE set of it. Should have just try out the sample first!!! Urrgghhhh

Well.. Innisfree jeju products wasn't really a good product for me. I couldn't really blame which product that causes me breakout because I have been using the cleanser, toner, lotion all together. It can be only one of them... Or ALL of them.. I don't know. but I have stop using all the Innisfree products already... 

t.t

Mona (trying to heal my pimples and acne now)